Louis Tam
Award-winning Satirist
Silence,
or Meaning.
An original dystopian story
“Silence, or meaning.” So goes the first line of the first paragraph of the first article on the first page of the Common Law, bolded, underlined, and highlighted in a golden hue.
When the atomic bomb fell from the heavens, earth was reduced to mere ash. There were no blaring sirens, no public radio announcements, no screams for help. Not anymore.
All was deafening and then all was quiet. Dull lives of the emotionless masses ceased while irises were glued to screen static, ears muffled by circular seashells that burned to crisps with their owners. Some exiled themselves to the boundaries of the city with hopes of rebuilding civilization with the knowledge of previous intellectuals printed on paper, at least those which survived the scorching flames that reached the temperature of Fahrenheit 451.
That was the story of a city on the East Coast, as reported in the tabloid.
Debates amongst the knowledgeable rose, fearing that their city could be the next to be obliterated. They had reasons, but the monarchs turned a deaf ear to everything “disruptive”. Eventually, the voices grew so loud that they deemed it fit for discussions to be silenced, and soon opinions, chatter, speech that was considered “purposeless”. They enacted The Rule without opposition. None dared to oppose. None were able to oppose.
Nobody spoke of the weather. Nobody spoke of the car crash at the intersection in the morning. Nobody spoke of the kidnapping and the experimenting. Nobody spoke. Everyone’s faces were stuck to screens, ears imprisoned behind metal muffs, blasting vibrant colors and sounds with no second to lose.
Thoughts were restrained in the mind, ideas remained on the verge of expression.
People feared not a burning end, but an unexpected word, the merest utterance deemed “purposeless” by those who had a say.
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The corner of the city was quiet. Unlike any other corner of the city, a cozy yellow light shone through the windowpane, illuminating the dreary, empty pavement two storeys below. A fountain pen weaved across the surface of the mustard paper, forming elegant glyphs and numbers on the last page of the author’s latest publication. His thoughts and opinions flooded the infinite expanse of the hard-covered book, for written text was exempted from the Rule; to read or not was up to the individual.
“Written by M. Parks” sparkled under the table lamp as he closed the cover and sighed at his newest brainchild, knowing that the only readers would be the robotic security guard at the gate of his residence, and the publisher.
As he put down his pen, the world returned to the usual taciturnity, sans the whirring of the fan and the creaking of the ceiling. His mother was downstairs obediently munching on the soap opera on television, his father drowning himself in deafening tunes. They didn’t talk much. They didn’t talk much.
The day was just like any other day. The sun rose and set on the lifeless concrete buildings, adding nothing to the greyish streets nor the serious looks of the masses. There were no expressions. There were no expressions. Everything was dead silent, and the day was no exception.
He was used to it by that time. Still, he would journey around to see the others indulge in their entertainment modules without noticing him passing by.
“Murray Parks,” sounded the security guard as it conducted its routine examination on the passer-by. It flipped through the book on one arm, scanned the author on the other.
“Exciting,” the mechanical voice spoke. Its voice was one of the few voices that was allowed and regularly heard. The comments went on for what felt like minutes, but Murray uttered not a word.
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As the robotic arms concluded their examinations, Murray snatched his book and set foot on the barren sidewalks, his eyes looking forward and occasionally upward. He felt the breeze of early spring rushing through his curly hair, the sound of it passing by caressed his ears, and he liked it. It was refreshing. It was fragrant. It was inspirational. It made him feel alive in the dead city.
“How does it feel to be alive?” He pondered, “How should it feel to be alive?”
Back in the day, speech would help him organize his thoughts. Now, he could only pray the Vocal Irises hadn’t detected the narrow escape of his ideas from his mouth.
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The road was as bleak as it was vacant. The trip to the publisher had never been different. Murray would imagine himself living in the attic of the publishing house with the publisher, sipping macchiato while discussing the works of Arthur Conan Doyle. The publisher was nobody like the others, and Murray was glad to be working with such a knowledgeable person.
The bell chimed as Murray pushed open the wooden door to the publishing house. The sunlight at dawn swept through the bookshelves and desks and the piles of paper in between. The aroma of sandalwood engulfed the humble cottage. Murray relished this feeling of being at home, of being in a place with silence that was tranquil and pleasant.
The familiar sound of leather soles on the textile floor echoed through the chamber. A warm smile spanning from ear to ear appeared from behind the towering shelves. A white beard and gilded monocle greeted the author. Murray had never heard the publisher’s voice. He could only audiate the weathered and profound “Hello”s that would come out from between the wrinkled lips. In his arms were books of tangerine and navy. Nevertheless, in Murray’s eyes, there was enough room for a heartfelt greeting.
Murray extended his arms, as if awaiting to embrace the warmth of a fatherly hug once again. The publisher raised a sole finger from his vacant hand and placed it in front of his mouth, much to Murray’s surprise and dismay. He lowered his arms in mid-air while he followed the finger as it pointed towards the rear wall of the cottage.
A woman.
An elegant figure whose blonde-brown hair blended delicately with the golden hour. Sapphire pupils adorned her pretty porcelain skin. A beige cardigan and brown skirt were shimmering under the overhead oil lamp. Gentle fingers strolled gracefully along the pages of a teal-covered book. Murray recognized the book as his first publication.
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He couldn’t help but freeze in place and be fascinated by the sumptuous person in front of him. For the first time ever, he found someone else who read his thoughts and processed them in a human mind. For the first time ever, he felt as if the flora in the parks weren’t as dead and the water in the ponds wasn’t as cold.
For the first time ever, he craved to speak. To speak without punishment, to speak without being caught. To speak freely, but he couldn’t.
The publisher waved in front of Murray’s fixated eyes, snapping him back to reality. The old man took the book from Murray’s hands and added it to his stack with a modest grin, to which Murray couldn’t but respond with a shrug.
As the publisher turned away to return to his office, Murray hurried through his pockets for his notepad and fountain pen. The tip of the pen stopped at the surface of the white canvas, as if what he wanted to say braked at the tip of his tongue.
“What to write?” He questioned himself. He wanted it to be welcoming. He didn’t want it to sound arrogant like saying “I’m the author of the book you’re reading.” He wanted to impress, but he didn’t quite know how. He couldn’t recall what it felt like to initiate a conversation with a stranger, one that kindled his desire to speak. It’d been eight years since he and the publisher crossed paths.
“Hey, I like your hair. What’s your name?” he finally scribbled on his notepad, attempting to keep his script neat and not seem wobbly. “It was how people greeted someone they were interested in at a bar, no?” He thought. With a semi-confident inhale, he navigated through the publishing house as if he had memorized the layout like the back of his hand. He paced for what seemed like eternity, until he finally arrived in front of the angelic silhouette.
The girl turned and raised an eyebrow. Her crystalline eyes met with Murray’s fascinated and nervous gaze. His heart raced like a mechanical hound on the hunt, almost forgetting why he had approached her in the first place until he felt the paper crackle in his tightened fist.
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Murray handed the piece of paper to the woman in front of him. His face was warming up. He could feel his cheeks apple-reddening, like the fruit he had only heard of from his grandfather. The woman recoiled slightly at his sudden movement, but took a careful glimpse at what was written on the note. She giggled, and that made Murray feel ever so slightly at ease. Her fingers slid from the book in hand and maneuvered in the air, bringing a confused expression to Murray’s face.
Frustrated, she took the note from his hand and flourished a pencil from above her right ear. Murray watched as the pencil maneuvered exquisitely across the back of the note, that smile never leaving her face. After a few seconds, she handed the note back to him.
“Julie,” he spoke to his mind, the girl now looking into his eyes. For a moment he felt as if he had been teleported to a dimension of eternal spring, inhabited by only him and Julie. He hesitated not a second, drew his pen from his pocket and scribbled below the cursive writing.
“Take a walk outside?” he wrote, leveling his palm so that Julie could see the note. Julie’s eyes wandered to the side as she hugged the teal-covered book close, and gave a humble nod soon after.
Excitement overflowed Murray’s head. He dashed to the entrance and the bell rang as he yanked the handle. Julie strolled towards the door and waved in the direction of the publisher’s office. He waved back and winked reassuringly to Murray as Julie exited the publishing house.
“Perchance, today is not any other day,” he pondered as he let go of the closing door.
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Julie’s silken hair flowed in the cool spring breeze, the environment illuminated by her radiance with every step she took. Murray walked beside her. He felt as if her mere presence purified the air around them and sweetened it with an incense of honey. The buildings and constructions on the side of the road contrasted with the duo. He felt as if they didn’t belong to this place, but instead the realm that he visited for a fraction of a second.
They found their way into a park a few blocks from the publishing house. Julie ran to a bed of flowers and sniffed as hard as she could. Murray watched as she danced around like a butterfly in the middle of a verdant field. Never had he seen somebody so energetic in his life, not even the publisher.
She bolted towards Murray as he was starting to drift into his imagination once again. Murray was shocked by her sudden intervention, but strived to maintain a confident and determined image. Julie gestured towards the note that he had been holding all the while, and when he showed her the note, she pointed at the last three words of Murray’s first writing.
“Right, I didn’t tell her,” He flinched, but promptly restored his posture. He grabbed Julie’s book from her left arm, and subtly directed her gaze towards the pitch black words on the bottom of the cover, those that were also present on his most recent production.
Julie gasped without making a sound. Her hands darted to her wide-open mouth, allowing gravity to take hold of the teal book. Murray’s reflexes enabled him to catch it before the thud would have broken the silence of the park. Julie stood for a moment, leaned backwards, until she finally took the book from Murray and started flipping through the pages filled to the brim not only with his words, but with remarks that she made after each and every paragraph.
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For the second time ever, Murray felt understood. There was another intelligent individual in this numb world who not only read his creations, but took them to their heart. He felt as if his thoughts were being fathomed and cherished by someone. He felt as if his view of the ignorance of the people was reciprocated.
He seized the moment and wrote on a new page on his notepad: “What’s your full name? Where are you from?” Dozens of seconds went by as he tried to get Julie to look at his new inquiries. When she finally noticed it, she reached for her pencil and scribbled briskly. “Julie Berrill. UK.” Afterwards, she instantly swapped back to showing Murray her fondness for his writing.
Time seemingly slowed. Murray couldn’t help but smile as Julie enthusiastically elaborated on each of her remarks by gesturing her hands and mouthing invisible words. Murray felt the lump in his throat growing, a surge of emotions that motivated him to let his thoughts flee to the outside world.
The flowers that Julie sniffed bloomed to life, their petals rejuvenated with a fresh hue of green.
“I...” Murray’s vocal chords exercised at long last. He was looking for the words. He was thinking of how he could convey all he wanted to say with the minimal amount of pronunciation. He was thinking, he was thinking. Julie’s eyesight turned to him. Without a second thought, she let go of the book and covered Murray’s mouth in the blink of an eye.
Yet, all was too late. The leather cover of the book crashed onto the ground like a lightning strike from the steel-grey clouds above. A piercing siren blared out from a nearby lamppost, sparing no time for the two to protect their ears.
“CIVILIAN MURRAY PARKS, REMAIN STATIONARY. CIVILIAN MURRAY PARKS, REMAIN STATIONARY.” The mechanical voice reverberated throughout the park, accompanied by the sound of screeching tires barely audible from beneath the unbearable roar of the concealed Vocal Iris. Julie went down on her knees from the abrupt noise. Murray wanted to get her up, yet he couldn’t help but keep his ears shut with his sweating palms. He couldn’t help but watch. He couldn’t help.
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The siren died with the stopping of a scarlet limousine at the park entrance. Its pitch-black tinted windows resembled a void within the already lifeless city. The door of the vehicle flung open, revealing a wide figure dressed in obsidian. A cigarette hung below the man’s shades and top hat. The silver buckle of his belt reflected rays of beaming sunlight toward Murray.
The figure advanced towards Murray and Julie, both on the ground. Plants withered as the man passed by, as if he possessed a deathly aura. The man halted in front of Murray as he finally recovered from the ringing in his ears.
Standing, he recognized the man as the supreme supervisor of the Bureau, the man on the billboards and propaganda, the local governor, the man who was allowed to speak.
“Civilian Murray Parks,” the man’s voice shook the earth with every syllable. “Show your Speech Ticket, or await detainment.”
Murray could smell the filth coming from the man’s mouth. He scurried through his pocket, but the strip of Tickets were nowhere to be found. He searched desperately, he searched every fold and crease, but the Tickets simply couldn’t manifest out of thin air.
Julie raised her body shakily as the man scrutinized her. He looked as she ran through the pockets of her cardigan and took out a sole, red Ticket. Murray watched with relief as Julie handed the thin piece of paper to the man, who snatched it from her hand without an expression on his face.
“You’re fortunate, Parks,” the man proclaimed. “Anything troubling you? You’re not the kind of person to violate the Rule.”
The man pulled Murray aside and glared at Julie, warning her to stay where she was.
“Tell all your troubles to me, the great Bernard Howard!” The man spoke with a devilish grin, while he wrapped his arm around Murray’s neck in a rough manner. “You’re brave enough to write, yet you’re too scared to speak? What have your parents taught you, Parks?”
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“Nothing useful,” Murray said to himself, ensuring that his lips were stuck together, even though he could feel as if paragraphs were about to burst out and he would vomit all over Bernard’s face.
“I get it, I get it. It gets redundant when all you can hear in this city is my voice,” Bernard continued. “Consider the seashells, the parlors! Your life would be less dull,” He elongated his pronunciation of the word. “Stubbornness leads nowhere. Make a choice. You have them.”
Murray attempted to avoid Bernard’s gaze, but his attempts were of little avail as the governor leaned in closer. He could see the acne on his nose, the nostril hairs protruding from his greasy snout.
“Choices, hmm? Between blindness and deafness, deafness remains popular,” Bernard growled. “Does sight perceive more than hearing? Keller would disagree. She didn’t even have to choose! What a fortunate soul she was!”
Bernard’s words echoed in Murray’s brain. He just wanted this torment to be over, so he could be beside Julie once again.
“Do something meaningful, Parks. Speak with meaning,” Bernard withdrew his arm from Murray’s shoulder. “Consider yourself on notice. Next time, it’ll be the Hound.”
Bernard slid the red Speech Ticket into his pocket as he marched towards his vehicle. Julie backed away as the man walked past her. Murray rushed to Julie as the limousine door slammed shut. Tires screeched, and the gloomy clouds parted to reveal the afternoon sun. The world returned to its forlorn state.
“Meaningful,” Murray paced the park with unease, his thoughts twisted into a whirlpool of dread and hopelessness. For the first time ever, he wanted to give voice to his opinions, since speech would help him organize his thoughts. His parents didn’t teach him that. They taught him to obey.
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They taught him that obedience prevented them from getting into trouble. They taught him that obedience provided everything that they needed to survive. They taught him that obedience minimized everything meaningless.
Murray was about to burst when he felt a comforting pat on his shoulder. He turned and saw Julie’s warm smile and teary eyes. Murray wrapped his arms around Julie and hugged her as hard as he could. Julie stood and let Murray cry without wailing, tears succumbed to gravity without any protest. The two stood beneath the midday sun for minutes before Murray finally receded, revealing a near-crumbled note on the ground between them. He recognized Julie’s handwriting. She must’ve written the note when she overheard Bernard and Murray’s conversation.
“The ignorant obey. The curious question.”
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Murray froze in place for minutes as if he had an awakening. He felt as if Julie’s words hit just the right spot, the cornerstone that would make the bridge collapse once removed. He had this feel all along. He just hadn’t known how to put it up until that moment.
Bernard’s limousine was nowhere in sight. Yet, Murray needed a place in which his soundwaves would not cause the Irises to oscillate. The park wasn’t safe. He needed to go somewhere far away.
When Murray’s thoughts returned to his mortal flesh, he drew his pen and notepad from his pockets and scribbled wildly on the paper. His writing was as expressive as his creative mind at that moment.
“Let’s head to the wilderness,” he showed his note to Julie, who had finished wiping off Murray’s teardrops with the sleeve of her cardigan. She recoiled in surprise, and took the note from Murray and manifested a few words with her pencil.
“They erected a perimeter.” Murray felt as if his soul left his body. He had never heard of a perimeter around the city. He had been scavenging around the corners for inspiration and all he could see were endless rows of concrete boxes. For a moment he doubted Julie’s statement, but he had no reason to not believe in her. She was able to read his mind. He noticed a second row of words that Julie wrote, “I know a way around.”
Despair turned to hope that sparkled in Murray’s irises, now glancing at the determined figure standing in front of him. The blonde and beige shimmered beneath the rays of not scorching heat but of warming embrace. Murray gave a confident nod, signaling Julie to lead the way.
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The skies switched from azure to indigo as the two navigated the dead streets for hours on end. They originally headed south, but the repetitiveness of the urban design left Murray puzzled and disgruntled. Julie had drafted a miniature map on Murray’s notepad, which offered no assistance as the sky dimmed and every street felt the same.
Murray’s eyes were giving in to the tiredness, his gaze jumping from one lamppost to another. He couldn’t recognize his way home, but to him now, home was not a place anymore. Home was not where he could comfortably pour his thoughts onto the canvas of unoccupied books and watch helplessly as his parents rotted in entertainment. Home was where he could express his opinions. Home was where Julie was.
He was about to suggest heading back when he saw Julie wailing her arms in front of him. They halted at what seemed to be the middle of some boulevard, except that trees were nowhere to be seen, and the asphalt extended for miles and miles until they vanished into the horizon. Houses and lampposts flooded the sides until they all converged to the same point far ahead, but the perimeter was nowhere in sight.
Murray stood unmoved, not knowing what Julie’s enthusiastic calling implied. That was until he moved closer, surpassed Julie, and noticed something odd. Something out of place. Something that was too ubiquitous to be overlooked.
On the asphalt that was right at his foot, there was pitch black. The last bit of sunlight at dusk made it clear that it wasn’t just dull black. The shadow of the lamppost broke into two. There was a black hole in the middle of the street.
Julie joined Murray while he was investigating the weird phenomenon. He looked up as she walked closer to the glitch in reality, but his hand wasn’t quick enough to stop her.
It was then he noticed a spark of white from the void, a flicker that lasted not a second.
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Murray looked into Julie’s eyes. He knew that she had an idea, and her determined gaze was asking for him to join her. He gave her a confident nod, and Julie handed him a note with the same elegant script. “Yell ‘Bernard rules’ at the top of your lungs on a count to three.”
Anticipation turned to confusion as he reread the sentence over and over in his mind. “That would cost me, no, Julie two Tickets, but she has none left after my slip up earlier.” He reminded himself. Still, deep down he trusted Julie. He trusted that she wasn’t the person to trick him to get into any trouble.
Julie stared at Murray as he took a deep breath and closed his eyes as a signal of agreement. When he reopened his eyes, Julie already positioned herself a few feet away from the black spot, lowering her body as if preparing for a running start like a sprinter. Murray watched as Julie raised three fingers in the air. He inhaled as deep as he could, like taking in the fragrance of fresh publications at the publisher. His stare never left Julie’s three fingers. Then two. Then one. Murray closed his eyes.
“BERNARD RULES!!!!!!!”
Thud!
His proclamation resounded through the streets, but Murray felt that his voice was louder than it should’ve been. Maybe it was that he hadn’t vocalized so loudly in eight years. He didn’t know. His hands darted towards his ears in reflex. He didn’t know, nor did he hear the thud that sounded in front of him.
Nor did he hear the blaring sirens. Nor did he hear any blaring siren.
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When Murray’s eyelids parted, he saw that the void in the middle of the street was no more. In its place was a gigantic hole, surrounded by the views of the “street” that flicked black and white, red and green. On the ground right in front of the hole was Julie, her arms supporting her upper body as she sat on the border between the asphalt and whatever that was on the other side of the gateway.
A grassfield, of green that no other plant within the city had displayed. Murray could spot them from below the rubble and ashes, protruding from the dark “skies” around the hole.
Murray rushed to Julie and helped her stand up. His eyes scanned through her body, looking for any scratches and bruises from whatever produced the loud noise. He looked from head to knee until he felt Julie’s hand on his shoulder. Her reassuring touch followed by her soft gaze put Murray at ease.
Her hand reached for his, and, having been familiar with her company, Murray took it and gripped it tight, as the two set their sights on the greenery beyond the hole.
They walked forward slowly, tiptoeing past the fragments of parlors scattered on the asphalt, and ducked to fit through the hole. The passage was short as the wall was thin. When Murray set foot on the tender grass, Julie was halfway through. As Murray straightened his posture, he shielded his eyes from the blinding light from the horizon, a light so bright that couldn’t compete with those from the parlors, giving off a warmth that Murray had never felt on his skin before.
The skies in front of Murray was akin to that he had seen at dawn, except that the endless expanse of black and white had been replaced with green and yellow. The clouds were painted gold and brown. Murray lowered his arm as his eyes adapted to the genuine sunlight. He turned to see Julie walk out from the hold without a flinch, as if she saw such brightness beforehand.
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Murray turned to see that hole that they emerged from. Much to his surprise, an enormous, black wall presented itself, with its top bending inwards and its edges extending towards the infinite earth. Its surface was decorated with pipes and wires, forming a cage of barbed restraints around the megastructure.
“What is all this?” The question in Murray’s mind escaped his mouth. His hands hurried to his lips, but Julie giggled and reached for them. She lowered his hands, and mouthed a word that Murray instantly recognized. A word that he had always pondered about. A word that fully described what he had been looking for.
“Reality.”
Murray’s pupils dilated as he recognized the word. He looked at the structure behind him in confusion, wondering if he was foolish enough to perceive what was inside the dome as “reality”. He had often wondered if there was more to the mundane lifestyle within the city, and now he had his answer. Yet, one question lingered in his mind, one that had existed since Julie informed him of the presence of a perimeter.
“Do you know all this?” Murray inquired, his body now turned to Julie, who had not moved an inch. She reached for Murray’s notepad.
“Speak. They won’t hear us here.” Although it was not the wilderness Murray had anticipated, he went on, but Julie was still searching.
Click, click, click, click, click, click, click, click.
Murray handed her his notepad when he caught a series of faint sounds with his ear, one that he would not have mistaken. One that Bernard warned him of. One that he feared.
“Quick! Answer me!” Murray hurried Julie as the sounds grew ever so slightly louder. Julie reached for her pencil and surfed across the paper, and showed her writing to Murray: “Yes.”
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He was unsure if that was the answer that he had anticipated or not, but his nervousness was getting the better of him.
“Why won’t you speak?” He was about to ask Julie when he remembered his first encounter with Julie earlier. His mind came across the maneuvering of fingers in the air, now resembling symbols that seemed ever so familiar. Ones that he studied in the textbook of images in a soundless classroom.
“You’re mute?” He finally concluded. Julie scribbled on the note swiftly. “Obviously.”
Murray was unfazed by the answer as if asking the question was unnecessary from the beginning. He was about to grab Julie’s arm and start running from the growing sound when she manifested a tangerine book seemingly out of nowhere. The book was thin and the cover excluded a title, but a navy logo could be clearly seen embedded at the center of the paper.
He studied the logo hurriedly, his feet urging his eyes to scrutinize as he ran from the imminent danger, but he couldn’t help it. There was something about that logo that mesmerized him, something that clicked with the deepest ends of his soul that forbade him from moving before he fully understood what was in front of him.
His eyes swept through the two diagonals linking three columns of varying positions, the center of which lowered to make space for a simplified globe on top. Beneath the figure, written in block letters, “MENSA”. He recalled the books in the publisher’s arms moments before he met Julie.
Murray looked back up, but Julie was nowhere to be seen. All that was left were the growing footsteps of the mechanical creature approaching, the tangerine book in his hand, and a lush, blooming tree not so far from him, followed by another behind, then another, until it formed a line extending into the sunrise.
His heartbeat hastened, his blood surging in his veins. It was then or never. He recognized the formation and started running without a second thought in mind. Not his parents, not Bernard, not the “reality” that he had called home.
“Julie,” He mumbled in the silent wind.
~END (or is it?)~
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